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This week we're supposed to turn in a seven page paper on what kind of clients we want and what kind of therapy we prefer to use.

Boy howdy am I learning about myself. Well no, I think I already knew these things about myself, I suppose I should say boy howdy am I getting confirmation about myself!

Look, we all have feelings. I know I do. I have some really deep oceans of feelings.. but I am more than my emotions. If every decision I ever made was based on how I felt at the time I would still be making the mistakes I made at 25. I was a seriously emotional decision maker back then. And you know what? Moods pass. Things change. And you have this decision you're stuck with. So as I learned this lesson myself I realized that others also make emotional choices. I want to help people see that they can make choices outside of their emotions.

Now let's not assume that I mean you can never make emotional decisions. If you feel the need to tell someone you love them. DO IT. Sometimes we have to make emotional risks. If you think your soul mate is halfway across the world and they feel the same for you.. go for it. Those kinds of decisions are bigger than whether or not to ask for a raise or tell your brother he doesn't use enough deodorant. Conditions of the heart are a whole, and other, topic.

Anyhow, I have said until I am blue in the face that I want to be a life coach. And the types of therapies I would use with my clients really fit into that. I feel like I'm on the right path.

Dean Winchester is a good example of how fucked up you can be, and still get shit done. If you needed a role model of how to get out of bed in the morning and get your life done, just ask What Would Dean Do?

Note to Self (something I found on Tumblr that moved me greatly)

I feel like everyone in the world should read this. 

Seriously.

This lady wrote some really fantastic words.

Blood Of A Saiyan

After about a year of reflecting I have made a decision to let BloodOfASaiyan.com go. I have been running this website since I was pregnant with my son (He is almost 13!!) and it has brought me so much happiness. It started in 99 on a free service that sucked but was all I could do at the time. Then, I formally bought a dot-com and relaunched in 2003. SO much joy! It also brings me so much work. Work that I have not had time for in 2+ years (almost 3!). I was one of the first English Dragonball Z websites. I was the first female English webmaster for Dragonball Z. After so many years of sleepness nights to fix code (I was running this before there was all this fancy website software), keeping my content fresh and relevant so that I was (during my peak) hitting over a thousand unique hits a day (without paying for advertising! That was word of mouth.), and meeting with people all over the country who were fans of my site, I just have to let it go.

I feel a loss because it has been something I have worked so hard on and been so proud of for so long. I also feel this relief because I am constantly haunted by the fact that the site sits there unattended to. It breaks my heart to let it go but it breaks my heart to neglect it.

I still own the rights to the dot-com and don't plan to give it away. Perhaps in a few years when my life is less busy I will restart the site. Perhaps I will not.

DBZ is still in my heart. Bulma and Vegeta are still one of my fav love stories. Future Trunks is still one of the people I want to hug the most.

still searching for Dragonball #4,
DJ aka Bulma of BloodOfASaiyan.com

Masters bound..

With the last semester of my Bachelors degree approaching I have been doing a lot of soul searching. What to Master in?

I considered furthering myself in Psychology (my Bachelors focus) but not to be a therapist. Honestly I could never do that job. I don't think I have the patience (compassion?) to listen to people whine incessantly about First World Problems. Don't misunderstand me, there are people who have genuine problems and I am so glad there are therapists to help them. If I DID continue my Psychology degree I would want to be a Life Coach. I feel like I already do that in so many ways at my present job.

I considered an MBA. I have an Associates in Business with a focus on Small Business. MBA's are hot in demand and expected to remain so. I would have to have Masters level Accounting and Masters level Economics. No thanks. I know, I know, I always tell people to face fear and conquer it.. but this is not just average fear, I know my capabilities and I barely got out of Economics and Accounting (1 and 2!) at the undergrad level - Grad level will slay me. So I find this a logical decision.

I love my job. With a passion. I have never in my life loved a job the way I love this one. I have a purpose. I make a difference (at least I think I do!) I am hands on with college students. I feel (Cue the corny music) like I found my calling. So what can I do with my educational future to support my current job? Well it just so happens that there are such things as Masters programs in Student Affairs (Student Services, depending on the college). A Masters degree that ties into my job?! It's perfect.

Will I be as marketable as I will be with an MBA? Nope. Will I be happier continuing this path of fulfilled happiness than I would be if I ventured off into another one of material paychecks? Yep.

I'm not trying to say I don't like a good paycheck. I like things. And I love conventions. So yes, please pay me! But I will absolutely get work in the Student Services field with this degree and the experience I already have. I really think I will be a happy person with this decision.

A load is off my shoulders now. I see the path before me. It isn't full of golden leaves and diamond sidewalks, but it is full of joy and fulfillment. I choose happiness. I hope you will choose your path of happy, (even if for you it's the material stuffs.. be happy!)

keep smiling,
DJ

P.S. If the universe chooses to reward me with happiness AND money I will certainly not complain! Just sayin.